I was at the mall other day( So cliche about models love to shop, don’t we go anywhere else besides mall & club? Lemme try this right again.) I was attending Legislative Committee Meetings otherday in my bikini, (this is not gonna work so fuck it.) ANYWAYS, I was at Bloomingdale otherday, The guy who works at the store came up to me when I was really focused on shopping. He asked me how am I. I was going to say “fine.” then thought about saying good. so when he said” Hey, how are you?” my words got mixed & said ” FaT” He looked at me weird and walked away as if nothing happened. I was embarrassed by it then realized this is the best way to make pushy sales person go away. Follow my word,children.When they ask u how u are doing tell them FAT.

I haven’t post anything lately as I went throgh something very very hard. My granma passed away, I loved her very much, I couldn’t eat, sleep, shit,(I do not anyway)read, fuck(I do not do that that much anyway & I feel very disgrateful for saying this so I took it back) knit, plant,pee, swallow, anything. My friend found me at the mall in my pajamas. It was very painful to let go someone you love the most. I grow up without father, so I was brought up by my grand parents. I grow up sniffing my grandma’s feet.(I don’t know why) I want to tell you, if your grandpa& ma is still alive, spend more time with them. sip ensure with them while they talk about world war II. Shine their denture put grill,hook up their electronic wheel chair with soundsystem. The time is precious, u know?

You told me to drive safe. I will. Okay? I promised you I will buy you a big house. I couldn’t yet. but I will be the person you can be proud of.so I love you.