on Friday nite in overrated, staying home and watch princess diary in a new black. I went out after work, but I was like 4 hours late. at least I tried for my love. She was home by the time I left.. ahhhh. I used to love break dance. You did not hear that. Of course I did not pretend to do moppin the floor movement to move other bitches off my floor so I can dance. I was once called “mirror ball of  Shinjuku.” Not. Random. Far east movement was getting all the hot asian models on their music video when we were shooting and dancing around, I was playa hating them.Never seen that many hot asses on the set. Even prop girls were hot.  I wanted to be a rapper that year. Then I realized I had no skillz to rip tha mic. I think a lot. I day dream a lot. I had many imaginary jobs. rapper, crepe chef, wife, conductor. Acting is good so far because you can do everything, and never fail being one. Real life you can fail. Falling down on your face hurts. You know?

The security guy in my building is nice. but too nice. One time he was showing me the camera in my building and he hold my shoulder. I was like “what the fuck!” and jumped. when you are short,people always try to grab you. some time I come home, I find random old short man hanging on my leg n stuff. We always need to watch our back. Anyways, last nite I had those plaid skirt on, coming out from my car. That should be only me. Who else would wear that from my car.He creep up on me and said “oh, yea, it’s you.” I was scared shitless.  I told him” If you wanna say something, say something from far. You say how are you. do not come up to me and creep me out. you  freak me out. Don’t you ever do that.” Then walked away. He looks very sad. He’s old man. No hobby I’m sure. I give him candies. He thought I was like his kid or something. That old. This morning at whole food..hey you guys if you are waiting for the part I’m gonna make out or bikini car wash, it didn’t happen. Not on this. Anyways, There was this fat lady trying to buy flowers. She left one at the counters and walked away. Some people do that you know? I felt bad for the flowers so put it back in the water. then she came back. She was very mad at me and said ” why did you do that?” I said” This is the one and I thought you left it. “Then everything made sense. I think god was teaching me what I put it out will come back to me.  I was so pissed at the guy for no reason. I’m gonna give him a cookie. I will wear my black belt though. If  you spit in the air it will come back to you, right? Ten tsuba.Tensoba jyanaiyo~  

How are you guys? I’m writing this just for you. Yes. You. I didn’t know how man y people read my blog till “Thank you now get the F%^& out” cus usually I get comments from only you but I appriciate all the support there. I feel loved. Even short asian girl needs to feel loved sometimes.  Not while I’m sleeping. That would be a waste. Pacific time only. Here is the things I’m feeling lately. here we go

Pringles guac flav.

golf.I hurt my elbow playing. I’m not lying guys.

babywipes(still)

JC

Phillip Seymor Hoffman

tell myself to stop when I start ocd

hijiki

churros

god bless you.:)  

In Chicago,  You get $25 ticket for wearing low cut jeans, but those people should get ticket If I was a prez.People who put pink Chinese restaurant flyer on my car window wiper, please stop. I do feel some release when I find that I’m going to save 2.50 on my combo plate B with egg foo yong instead of 60 Dollar ticket, but c’mon.People who doesn’t hold the door.They should be slammed between door, minced, and cooked with spam.Since when Coffee bean decided that they can charge soy latte and muffin for like 8 bucks? That’s whole meal there. Caffeine is legal drug so we go there every day like crackhead. so is sugar. We shoot up espresso shot and snort crumb cake on alley. BTW.. did you know Starbucks’s logo had subliminal effect? It’s green, and Green supposed to calm you down(so make you want to stop and calm down there) and If you hide the hair of the mermaid, you see Edvard Munch’s “Scream” That Symbolize fear.  So, you feel like You need to relax, instead of anxiety,etc. I don’t know if you believe it or not but interesting huh? 

Almost everyday, people judge me. This is my conversation on im.

Dumb-ass: A lot of girls in LA are fake, are you a good person?

Me:I think I’m good person but kinda stupid question to ask. Who would say I’m        fake if you are fake.

Dumb-ass:That’s true. Oh wait, I see your nude pic,I didn’t know that. I have to    tell you, You will never make it in Hollywood.

 Me: Um.. Sharon Stone, Drew Barrymore did it.

Dumb-ass:yea, after they were famous, not like you. Noone will ever take you       seriously.

Me: Thanks! (block user)   

I can’t change the way people perceive me. I’m not a slut, I never have done porn, I’m trying 100% to be what I want to be. I was blessed by the god to get an idea in my head to entertain people. I came here study my ass off to go to College in MA. I was homesick. I used to watch Saturday nite live at my dorm and I realized that laughter can save the world. I left Japan to make money here, I mean my fam is pretty well off to send me to all private school but I wanted to make it my own  to take care of mother financially. I do now. 

My message to you all is don’t get discouraged by what people say. If you feel good about what you do, You are good. So easy for the others to judge you , but don’t let them. Because 5′3 104 pounds girl here is fighting too. with you.