I find it interesting how the energy works. When you really want something or someone badly, it doesn’t really come to you, but things or people you don’t think about that often would want you badly all the time… interesting…

I think bout going home a lot lately, My sister just had a baby. (baby boi and she should have named him Aichael.)It’s not bad to take a break sometimes. otherwise, you get burnout. Went to the mall with my gf. Out of boredom, I sprayed whole perfume from bloomingdale, I smelled like Gucche & gabbanaklein (basically mary kate and ashley perfume from walmart)caused us a headache.  I had nausea and had to go to bed earlier.

My man Jet Li said “the best way not to lose a fight is not to fight.”This is the reason why I wanted to marry him when I was a lil girl. Besides he can put the candle fire away with his hand. He’s not only physically strong but mentally strong. If some nerd said that, I would beat the crap out of him. But coming from him it make sense. He can say nonsense stuff but I would take it as some form of Taoism. Now, I must go to swallow cookiecrisp to learn heinrich manuver with left handed parrot. P.S.you guys must see “dirty hands” by David Choe. I wonder if all the artist must go through the suffering. I get my certain share of suffering. I miss my bimbo days doing Hawaiian tropic and import scene. Not.

 My peeps here got all the answers for me. Forget about spending dollars on stupid therapist. They just repeat Freud and Jung’s dream theory. Thanks for the advices for my friend’s lost dog hachi. She’s over it now. My issue now. I have this girl who likes me. A lot. I thought it was very flattering but I don’t have any feelings. I told her that. Then she became annoying. She gave me long ass love letter. She is constantly doing something to get my attention. I’m in the situation I can’t avoid her. (work, everyday life,whatever. I don’t want to go in details for her privacy.) She keeps on doing all the things to creep me out. What would you guys do? I know there is more serious shit going on like dollar weakens(So is Nikkei) but this was bugging me.  

Chinese will conquer the world becauseThey are always ranking near the top in international comparison in math. Everything is made in China. How could my sister travel to Europe and bring back the souvenir made in China.  When you look at the label on shirt,pants, spoon, most of them is made in China. I’m getting identity crisis here. Sometimes, I get confuse if I’m Chinese and have to see back of myself. (It said Made in Tokyo samurai Spirit on my ass.) They are everywhere and many peeps are sooo talented and strong.You can spray pesticide on them but they will survive. such as Ang Li, yao Ming, jet li(cantonese) Bruce lee, my best friend with eye patch,Gong li, Kaila, Lucy, Takashi Kaneshiro. He’s so talented and beautiful. I heard he’s gay but I heard I’m gay too, so He’s probablly straight. Who do you all like?

I was at starbucks because that’s what mature civilized people do. More points if you discuss presidntial debates. I can’t drink coffee so I had soy. Old European lady came in. She had leaf on her nose. I said “What the hell?”to myself. Everyone was staring at her. There must be the reason why she wear leaf just like Jewish wear headcap. (Btw, I will have Jewish last name soon…. To make it in Hollywood, you must have Jewish last name. My new name is Aiko Tanakh. It means “that which is read.”) I went up and asked her ” Why are you wearing leaf?” She said nothing and grabbed my arm. I thought she was going to put voodoo spell on me.  She whispered ” I use it for sunblock”. I felt as if she shared the biggest beauty secret to me. I say thank you for the info. she came up to me later and asked me to take a picture cus she likes my eyes.FYI, I look like 14 years old boy without make up but I said yes. I think Lewis Carroll scripted my day today.

is… I’ve been busy. I used to stay home all the time. I would read books, eat with mom everyday.(that explains why I didn’t have bf for two years.)I’m changing that. I’ve been hanging out with friends, doing activities. I went horse back riding, went to style lounge where you pretend to be famous to score free shit, museum. I just came back from random meeting at four seasons. I don’t know why old ladies like shiny stuff and ladybug motif stuff . I ate so much cheese there, I feel bloated. I’ve been trying to get out my house even I end up sleeping with pepto-bismol in my hand. It’s hard because I left home at early age, I felt obligated to hang with ma all the time. It was like me and she was still connected with inbilical cord (customised with swalovski rinestones) I just cut it off few days ago.  Have a good week! 

I’ve worked on TV show for UTB. I get to work with Fujii Takashi(from Lost in Translation.) He’s very big in Japan. There was a scene where he feeds me cooked mushroom. After the scene, he took away the toothpick I used (yuck, right?) and throw away. He’s so nice and talented. I also got to work with talented director Aki Kitamura. He’s extremely talented and nice too. I will let you know when it airs. I’ll be rockin mohikan like no tomorrow. Hot. If Tom Cruise can play “Last samurai.” I can be “The last of Mohicans” like daniel day Lewis.

My girlfriend and I went to the event other night. I realized in LA, If you are producer or  director, chicks would throw their asses everywhere. Ass were trying to drop degits, ass on the wall hanging, apple martini with double shot of ass. I know networking is important, but I got bit tired and went outside for the air. I made friends there. Two lost pitbull were outside and I did hardcore networking with them. I don’t think any of the girls had  my kind of interaction.The dogs were sitting on my lap. I hate when  people sell themself out so they can get what they want from someone.I like my friends just because. One of my girl does producing or directing,one of those things. I would  like her exactly same if she works at hotdog on a stick.(or maybe I would like her more for free hotdog.) I liked her because she was hell of a timberline player with good heart. That quality is as rare as hermaphrodite.  You can’t change who you are just to get what you want and must be true to yourself. Ladies, now I must go because I have TV show to produce and movie to direct.